I'm Sorry

Our dreams lay at my feet

Like the shattered windows of a home

After it’s been hit by a tornado

Your voice in my head

And your heart in my prayers

All I wanted to say is I’m sorry

But nothing comes out

The toxic pain of our unfinished fairytale

Follows me like a shadow without a purpose

I ask myself how I got here

How a hopeful ‘we’ changed so quickly to

Nothing but a lonely you

And a broken me

I’m sorry

Day dreams haunt my every thought

And the faint, familiar taste of depression

Lays itself on my every tear

I remember the smell of your skin

And the touch of your hands

I know the safety of your arms

And the comfort of your warmth

Stories are written in the palms of the heavens

And their execution tied to every grain of the Earth

Just like the sea has an end we don’t know

And the trees dance to a tune we can’t hear

I realized our story needs its own time to unfold

It needs time to be stitched together, time for clarity

I scraped away at my skin

With broken fingernails in the hope

That I could somehow remove your touch

From my every inch of being

To do what’s right and to

End what is not yet written

Is a pain I don't wish on my worst enemy

To love and know loss

To loose and to know hope

To hope and to know pain

To hurt and to know its presence

To feel and to know its worth

To value and to prepare for the worst

To never be prepared to have your heart broken

And to finally… After all that…. Break

Now I know what a broken soul feels like

Now I know how I wish for just, a broken heart

My love, I am so terribly sorry

May life always find you in good health

And may success never stop knocking on your door

When love fails you, like I have

And when your heart breaks, like I have done to you

May you know it’s not always bad

May you know that sometimes, 

It comes from a good place

May you heal with the strength of a thousand prayers

If a day should come, if I should be so lucky

Where the universe thinks I am made for you

And you for me

I hope our love finds its place in the world

And if not, if this is our end

I hope you find a love so whole

And so terribly fulfilling

That you never have to remember my face

Or my touch, with pain

That you look back with joy

And you’re okay

I wish for you, every happiness 

Every dream to come true

Every whisper to be heard

And every tear to be loved away 

I love you

I’m sorry

Dilz