Saturday, December 5, 2015

I'm Sorry

Our dreams lay at my feet
Like the shattered windows of a home
After it’s been hit by a tornado
Your voice in my head
And your heart in my prayers
All I wanted to say is I’m sorry
But nothing comes out
The toxic pain of our unfinished fairytale
Follows me like a shadow without a purpose
I ask myself how I got here
How a hopeful ‘we’ changed so quickly to
Nothing but a lonely you
And a broken me

I’m sorry

Day dreams haunt my every thought
And the faint, familiar taste of depression
Lays itself on my every tear
I remember the smell of your skin
And the touch of your hands
I know the safety of your arms
And the comfort of your warmth
Stories are written in the palms of the heavens
And their execution tied to every grain of the Earth
Just like the sea has an end we don’t know
And the trees dance to a tune we can’t hear
I realized our story needs its own time to unfold
It needs time to be stitched together, time for clarity
I scraped away at my skin
With broken fingernails in the hope
That I could somehow remove your touch
From my every inch of being
To do what’s right and to
End what is not yet written
Is a pain I don't wish on my worst enemy

To love and know loss
To loose and to know hope
To hope and to know pain
To hurt and to know its presence
To feel and to know its worth
To value and to prepare for the worst
To never be prepared to have your heart broken
And to finally… After all that…. Break
Now I know what a broken soul feels like
Now I know how I wish for just, a broken heart

My love, I am so terribly sorry

May life always find you in good health
And may success never stop knocking on your door
When love fails you, like I have
And when your heart breaks, like I have done to you
May you know it’s not always bad
May you know that sometimes, 
It comes from a good place
May you heal with the strength of a thousand prayers
If a day should come, if I should be so lucky
Where the universe thinks I am made for you
And you for me
I hope our love finds its place in the world
And if not, if this is our end
I hope you find a love so whole
And so terribly fulfilling
That you never have to remember my face
Or my touch, with pain
That you look back with joy
And you’re okay

I wish for you, every happiness 
Every dream to come true
Every whisper to be heard
And every tear to be loved away 


I love you


I’m sorry





Dilz



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