My Dear

Pungent and heavy

Are the dreams built on lies

Deceiving and eerie

Are the minds that work behind

We aren’t pawns

In a game larger than ourselves

We aren’t puppets

In a world built on what’s unfair

Make a name for yourself, they said

Make your family proud

But a name I already have

It’s the one that stand out in a crowd

Tainted souls make for poor leaders

And wishful sheep herd along

But the wolf lives in my mirror

Your downfall won’t make a sound

Don’t worry about me

Or what I might do with my life

Worry about yourself, honey

Because falls exist, but first comes pride

I don’t expect you to understand

The thinking that comes with being great

Don’t let mediocrity bring you down

It’s written in the lines of your fate

So the next time you come around

Just know you’re not welcome here

For my circle is my sacred place

And you’re too tarnished, my dear

- Diya Vasuraj - 

The Same Goodbye

Sometimes, on warm sunny days

I go back to when we were young

You were my whole heart

And I was the entirety of your world

We kissed on crowded streets

And made love in the afternoon

We were on the same side

And our dreams included one another

I was young and innocent, with demons to match

You were older and tainted, but naïve at best

The streets told our limitless story

While old pubs become memory boxes

Oh, how I wish to feel like that again

Back when we were young and restless

The years have soon come to pass

And we haven’t spoken for all of them

Heart break was the root of this story

But you and I threw caution to the wind

I wonder where you are these days

And if you remember those long nights 

Me in your arms, under the stars

As we danced to the music of the sky

I’m not the girl I used to be

But you might still be the boy I left behind

I’m a woman of different capabilities

Are you the man I’d warned you of?

Sometimes, this city brings you back to me

One moment at a time

Sometimes I hear you through the chaos

I remember the days you were mine

You’ve been in love since then

And to be honest, so have I

But never like that again

I can’t do the same goodbye twice.

- Diya Vasuraj - 

My Beautiful Mother

Dear Mama,

The hand you’ve been dealt has never been easy but with grace you have turned misery to milestones every time. You have seen a life that is rooted in hard work and yet you have only presented joy to my siblings and I.

There are few people that come into this world unacquainted with their own power, you are one of them. You are kind and soft like a flower, more fierce than a lioness, a mother beyond compare and my bestest friend. The years have left no scars in your ability to love and have showcased a phoenix with limitless passion.

Where once grew weeds, you made gardens. Where lay my insecurities, you nurtured confidence. Your tears lay silently on your pillow some nights, but yet every morning we were greeted with the warmest smile.

You cut ties with hunger so we could be full, you lied with a ‘I don’t want it, it’s yours’ so we always got the last bite. When naysayers gave us sleepless nights, you sang to us till we closed our eyes. When friends turned to foe you showed us how if we have each other, we need nothing more.

My sweet mother, you are not your demons, but your dreams. And you are more than we deserve in this life of what could be.

The Earth is a better place because you have walked on its ground and watered it’s soil with your heart.

I love you, now and forever.

- Diya Vasuraj -